As each day fades to grey, and then darkness

Shadow finds its way home

I hope vainly for comfort and brightness

I have none of my own

Diets, vitamins, and medications

Therapies of no use

Gurus, thought programs, and meditations

Rather blather abstruse

Any easement of all of my sorrow

Simply feels out of place

Far beyond any good, I’ll be there waiting

For the kick in the face

Scars on my skin made tender by the weather

Scars on the inside can’t hold this mind together

Dead on my feet, doubting if I’ll ever see

A new normal for me

Hard on myself, and I’m just not getting better

Don’t want to be, if I’ll feel like this forever

Failed as I am, hoping somehow there can be

A new normal for me

Every night seems to go on forever

Memories amplify

I fixate and lie mired in failure

Poor decisions don’t die

My despair deepens as nothing’s helping

No cure I haven’t tried

I keep wishing for happy new normal

As my life blurs on by

Sliding further down into my greyness

And anxiety

I wish, sadly, that buoyant, smooth sailing

Could be normal for me

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Music and lyrics by Wulf Downard. Arranged, performed, and produced by Wulf Downard.

Copyright Wulf Downard 2021. All rights reserved.